Fire and Ice

I have taken the Archon's words to heart.  No attacks, though they may have been expected. I must be growing.

Instead, I offered my services. We laughed, and I realize that I can still smile with him.


There is a belief that you lose part of yourself. Yet I wonder, where will I fall? Each comes in their way, a call like that of a siren's song. Which path? Calm resolve, feiry passions, solid resolution? Or would it be the last? How will it end?

I will seek my advisor. There is much to tell, including the approaching death of a friend.

I'm Numb.

Up is down, or is that the other way around?

Either way, I think it is time to speak to Morpheus again.

My mind is alive with thoughts. At least some of the matters have worked out, though I wish that it could have been all.

The more the say that I need a vacation, the more I realize this is the last thing that I want. Headway... this is what I want.

C'est la vie.

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I met this lovely young man.
He was sweet and nice,
and had a devilish charm.
With a smile, I was gone.
Lights and glitter surrounded me.
Yet not with so many smiles.
Perhaps it was the crown was a bit too hard.
Alas, it was not, but the whiny scepter.
I met a man on my way to market....
and how he reminded that we're alive.


In other news,
I'm not inflammable, but curtains help.
And besides that, he was looking the other way.

At least that course in how to make friends and influence handsome, evil men paid off.

Never lose a drinking contest with a Minosian.

You never know where you will wake up.

Either way, it was definitely needed. I think my mind is turning to mush while I wait. I've never been good at the waiting game, more one to just go forward, but too many things say 'wait' right now.

Seems that D. has a bit of hero worship going on. I wonder should I tease him, or merely hire him a gentleman's man to keep him out of trouble. The likelihood of that is a ice water to some abysses. Still, it could be amusing to watch, and payback and be wonderful at times.

So the good news is: I'm out of bed, mostly

Three days on my back and not in the good way. At least I've a few more answers that were missing before I got there. Some I don't like, but that is merely life and we travel onward.

Made a friend at the lost of another. Bittersweet.

Hm, I wander what tomorrow holds now? 

Strange words to say, but even stranger still to be felt.


But a straight answer? You continue to surprise me.

There is nothing that is exhilarating as a adventure. Granted I could do without the dirt, smell, and chittering rat men... but some would say it adds to the fun. At least it wasn't teeth, that could have been harder to explain.

But a glorious day all around. Between that and the outing and meeting my uncle. Now just to do a bit of research on Alhambra. I miss my princely friend, he would be able to answer such questions. 

Knowing doesn't help? It just adds another level of anxiety. Right when I think the earth will steady beneath me, I'm proven wrong.   At least I was able to see my father tonight. He and grandfather always have a calming effect. That no matter what it is, undead, deadly snakes, or merely feeling powerless, that it will be better. It is like that beloved kissed on a skinned knee, only for the soul.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.
The sun will come up.
And that is enough for me right now.

Today has been strange and confusing.
Too many enigmas and right when I thought everything was beginning to make sense again.
 So many pitfalls, and it is very dangerous.
Need to get the traps in place, immediately.

Politics, Politics, Politics.
There's times I wonder at how my life has changed,
and the advice that is given.
There was a time, that I felt aloof,
but now... everything is so different.
Perhaps, I can help... or at least try.

A duel.
Somehow being the blame. (this one still astounds me)
Dealing with unexpected houseguests.
Traps, lovely traps. (I can't wait to put them in place)

One adventure, that was delicious perfect.
A slew of notes to decipher.
So many people to speak with.
 I do hope that A. will forgive me.
Also need to speak with L. and S.

Is that my thoughts or just my head.
Today I tried, grandfather. Perhaps I won't @#$% it up.
Just don't be angry when I do.

This has been my day. A series of ups and downs. Round and round until all I wish to do is grow fangs and bite.   I want to set something on fire at the same time that I wished to be soothed by my mother's return.

It's a calloipe of emotion and one I don't rather enjoy. At least some puzzles have begun to unwind. That eases the thoughts, and the storm.

Must see about speaking with the captains.

There's  times I wonder if I'm still asleep.
Pinch me please.
Mother is alive, but I've not seen her since that night.
At least my guests understood the urgency.

My friends have asked on the glass. They, I think, wished to aid. Such is the beauty of friends, they're there when you need them the most. I need to speak with Desmond. 

There's so many puzzles running about in my head.  Future, Past... and blood.
Why do my thoughts keep coming back to it? 
Not of who this or that person's relative. I could care less, really.
No, but the rich scarlet elixir of life. It flows through us all, and yet is so different.

I still need to speak with so many people.  That, and I've not seen him in some time. Does he remember? So many promises.

It is not every day that a woman meets a queen.
But she was quite an interesting woman.

I wish only that I could have warned D ahead of time.

What do you want?
Less surprises.
Alright, that isn't true... an adventure.

There's times that I wonder if the earth were to swallow me, if it could just stop for a moment. A breather, a reprieve. Tonight was a hard conversation. But is there ever really an easy one. The ones they say that are, tend to be meaningless at best.

I think I've a friend, well a girl friend. I'm scared to breath that word too loudly for fear of another betrayal. The last still makes me reticent to trust so easily. But what is done is done. All the trust, laid bare and naked for her eyes. 

What now? It seems so much has changed, within me and them.  Has this position changed me? By the Unicorn, how I crave to feel the earth to my bare feet. The wind in my hair, and the press of water about me. Had only my friend sent word, that walk on the beach would have been welcomed. 

I think tomorrow... I shall find  the Captain.  It's time to find a bit of trouble. 

It is strange how my dreams work at times.
There was even once an aspiration to see out becoming a sybil.
Strange that my path has been altered thusly.
But the dream remained true... or maybe I just have become to know the people around me.

When in Amber...
One should try and dress as though they belong. At least to an extent.
Does the same hold true for the other lands? 
I'm beginning to think my wardrobe will grow expotentionally with the upcoming trips.
I wonder if I should talk to A. about what would be proper to wear on the tour.
Either way, I see keeping my seamstress friend elbow high in fabrics.
Or not, depending on the culture.

So many things to do,  that each time I steal a moment, I worry what will lapse in my absence.
Not that anything does, but it is that vigil we try to keep when we wish to see what we love prosper.
Need to find a date for dinner. Seems all the usual suspects have other committments. Not the first time alone, surely not the last.

I don't think it always soothe the soul.
In fact, it can be quite unnerving at times.
Time, and maybe hair dye.
Hmm, I wonder what would happen if I lightened it to show more of the red.

I think this post is changing me.
Went to see a friend last night.
Where I would have joked and embraced friends.
Instead, I feel the bystander. The grown-up.
Not a bad position, but at times, a lonely one.
At least I was able to help another with a minor favor.

I think I will take his advice; it is sound.

To Do List:
1. Trip with A. and S.
2. Contact A.
3. Research! and quite possibly a lesson.
4. Contact S to see if he's any news.
5. Contact H and G for dinner party.
6. Arrange an engagement party.
7. Find M. to give him the book.
8. Talk to the family.

 It is not often that my advice is sought in certain matters.
Mostly because I truly don't give a damn about some factors.
Is this horrible of me?
But a discussion of Pathi. 
How I miss home at times. I should go and visit.
Still need to speak with D, I and quit possibly V.
The later, I hope isn't too upset about the camel.
But really, what is a girl to do?